I have an exceptional memory and while that’s certainly a double edged sword, right now I choose to utilize it for wisdom and awareness.
Tomorrow is my birthday and this time of year always invites reflection, perhaps a bit more so this year as I close out one decade and begin another.
I am acutely aware of how dark, tense, pretty much all around awful my birthday was in 2015 when April and May brought what I’d call the “final descent into separation and divorce”. The visceral feeling of not being alone but being deeply lonely permeated that Spring.
Every birthday since has been an ever expanding joyful reclamation of this season that I’ve loved for as long as I can remember.
The past four years in particular have included rather fast paced invitations to extract wisdom from life experience. Wisdom that I get to carry forward into my forties.
I would NOT go back to my life from 30 through 36 and the fact that the end of this decade brought ongoing and increasing amounts of joyful experiences, connections and insight doesn’t make me sad. It illuminates potential and possibility.
Within just the past six months, clarity on passionate opportunities have beautifully unfolded and I’m so much more willing to trust myself than ever before.
I’m deeply willing to honor my needs, priorities and values. After thirty plus years of not being on my own list, I’m now at the top of it.
Absolutely nothing in my life today looks the way it did four, let alone ten years ago. It looks, feels and is absolutely so much more aligned, integrated and joyful than ever before. All of that’s been a profound gift from navigating my thirties.
The Eric Church song Some of It is just a slight obsession for me lately and yes, there really is something to some of it.
Dear thirties – thank you for the diamonds of wisdom, insight and awareness I carry forward while leaving the rest behind. It’s been real.
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